"I am ashes—

—where once I was fire."

Because you have to fall, in order to grow.

Holy damn, I morphed into a 19-year-old on December 31. I guess, I'm gonna stay 18 forever. You know, young at heart, always. Like, what's the fun in being a grown-up? Hahah. However, 18 is really the mean age (in my life) by which I have made my major decision about who I am and what I like. This is constantly changing and readjusting itself forever of course, but it is pretty much in place at the age of 18. The year has been a thrilling year.  Many exciting moments and there are difficult times too, a lot. I'm having a good time, when suddenly *BOOM* I'm 19 now. 
Being a half-adult. 12 months to go until I'm 20. 12 months before I'm feeling like being abruptly pushed off a cliff into adulthood. I think I should really do something this one full year. But, what? 

Oh, whatever. 
*sing a long to "18 Till I Die"*  
*enjoying life*
 

Cheers to youth!

✌ 

The Year of Clichés

Good things come and go like bad things, obviously. I read it somewhere, that not everything (not a thing, I would say) stays forever, but there are some things you'd fight for, so you can have them just a little longer. But when the time comes, let go.

A lot has happened in a year, yup. Enough to make me realize that not everything needs to make sense. Sometimes you just have to feel something you have never felt before.

No need to question 'why is this happening to me?' or something like that. You can't force something to work the way you want.

It flows or it doesn't. It's meant to be or it isn't.

Simple.   

Just embrace it. Embrace everything and each feeling that comes to us.

If it's happiness, savour the sweet moment while it last. If it's sadness, then face it, learn as much from it as you can, get stronger, get wiser. If what you feel is that flat emotion somewhere between happy and sad, man up, do something, be spontaneous, take the risk, feel the adrenaline rush. #realtalk

Life is simple. 

Thanks. Thank you. For everyone. For the people who make me happy, sad, miserable, 'die' of laughter. For being there. You guys are the best. I'm thankful for having you (as my parents, siblings, cousins,  friends or even strangers), I'm thankful for what I've been through,  I'm thankful for what I am right now, and I'm thankful, for I have lived in 2011.

Because of you, you, and you. Oh, you too. Yes. All of you. *bowing*
 

50:1

“PostSecret: Fifty People One Question ” 

The way this is filmed. It makes everything looks bright, colorful, and beautiful. Or maybe that’s just how life is. In any case, the not being able to fly, the couple, and the death one really got me.

Incepted

Just watched Inception yesterday. It was no doubt one of the most thrilling cinema experiences I’ve ever had. Totally a mind-bending movie. Something that provokes my brain. Whatever people says or whatever they’re doing, trying to figure out what’s the real ending is, I personally think Nolan want us, the audience, to go along with it without having their logic reject it. And one thing I learned from the movie, your reality might be a dream and vice versa.

Won't spoil anything here, not even the screen caps. So yeah, just go out, see this movie and enjoy!

Locomotion

There is a day when I woke up in the morning and feeling like I am moving in slow motion. Feeling disoriented. Like I was disconnected from my world.

At that moment I will lying on bed and wondering.

What now? What is next? How should I feel? What is going to happen?

Want to go back to dreamland. But I realized I have reality to live for. I just get out of bed. Goes through daily routine. On the other hand, the day seems surreal. Somehow… I don’t feel a day.

Weird, really weird.

+1

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know."

— Jessica Stanley's Valedictorian Speech 

(Movie; Twilight Saga: Eclipse)